Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?

Faith.

2010-09-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

Here I am , trying my best to work my way through the TMA due on Children's Day. Started at 2130 but opening my document only at 2256. Tell me, how do you spell Procrastination again.

This semester is going to be tougher for me. because I think I lost my focus somewhere back where I dont know where. All I know is I am struggling to find it back. I know I should and shall place all the worries in God's hands and not doubting His love and plans for me. But each and everytime I awaits and eventually receive my results, my heart simply sinks.

I am surely going somewhere with this progress, but the main questions are where and is it the place I want to go to?

UPdates

2010-03-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, Jaren's been real stressed for this period of time. As her age increases, her level of anxiety also increased. Jaren's looking for kakis to go overseas in end of May and June. Please responds. =)

NOTE: Jaren is also looking for people who are expert in Statistics urgently....... TYTY!

2010 - 5th Year Anniversary

2010-01-16T16:54:00.002+08:00

Forget to mention this:

MY BLOG IS 5 YEARS OLD.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOGGIE!

My POV

2010-01-16T16:31:00.003+08:00

Hi all

Those who know me well should know that I just returned back to my Hougang home not long ago. Well, I want to share with all of my peeps out there how's it like to stay outside and how different it is as compared to staying in my own home.

Well I moved to my brother's home few months back. The feeling is different in the aspect that over there I feel that I am independent. well, my aunt and her children stay there too, they belong to one family. And my brother and his wife one family.. Then that left me as the remainder. which explains why i mostly alone at home on Sundays. yea but at least i feel happier there. not because i do not need to do any household chores there.

the type of household chores is the same as those i have to do at my own home. in fact more at my brother's home. the bed i sleep on over my brother home is not as comfortable as compared to my own. but why i have sound sleep during my stay over there. in fact i have to wake up earlier (5.45am) there because i have to share the toilet with the other 2 kids. and the journey to office is further. whenever i return i got to clear 2 dogs' shits and clean the floor whenever i m free.

But no matter what i always have a peaceful sleep throughout the night. and i m truly happy when i am there. the only bad point i think is most probably that I do not have a proper home cooked meal over there. but when i return back to Hougang, although i have everything better in all aspects, including home cooked meal, i do not feel happier. because i feel that my family don't regard like family member. to me, they are like treating me more of maid. they never complain anything because they do not want me to move out again. and in depth they feel that during the times i stay out make them lose their face or reputation towards our relatives. to our relatives it may seems that my parents are not a set of good parents because 2 out of their 3 children moved out before.

to our own parents they feel that they themselves are very good set of parents, because they slogged so hard in so many years to support 3 of us to adulthood. they provide us with all good materials. but they failed to realise that these are not all what we want. Money is not everything. the results is very clear cut: 2 of us are not very rich but we are very independent and contented. but left 1 of us: he is very rich but he is never happy and he never exactly has a life. all these, FOR WHAT? why create so much troubles. my view is very simple: each and everyone of us should know what to do and what not to do. and not leave everything to my parents especially when they are so old already.

well this is my point of view. feel free to comment otherwise skip it.

Merry Christmas!!!

2009-12-23T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hi Guys!!!!

Just wanna say this to you all......................

Merry X'mas everyone! Have a blessed 2010 ahead!

Love,
Jaren =)

When Watching Vcds turn into a duty more than a Passion.....

2009-10-01T11:43:00.003+08:00

Been trying to finish up watching dramas and movies. In the past i can watch continuously for several days and nights because I wanted to finish up the drama before i can totally rest my mind otherwise i will keep thinking keep dreaming about the show.

That, is what i called Passion and interest.

But recently I watch for a few hours and I will start feeling tired and sleepy. Initially, I thought it's because I'm getting older, concentration span getting shorted. But no leh.. i used to be very tired too yet for the sake of the show i am able to stay through the night.

THEN, it dawned to me that I might be watching the show because I need to check if the discs are spoilt or I need to watch it soon for me to return to other people.

Seriously, where has the passion of watching shows gone to? Has it disappeared just like my Green Tea mooncakes with Melon Seeds?

FYI, the last show which I can't stop watching is Charmed Season 1 to 8 which I paid close to $700 for it.

Pictures!

2009-09-17T09:21:00.003+08:00

Haha... Self Made Wedding Photo (Me & Kelvin Cheng) :P

Me (11/09/09's Outing)

Ming Han & Yusuf (11/09/09's Outing)

Hong Jin & Wee Siang (11/09/09's Outing)

Stan & Hong Jin (11/09/09's Outing)

ROM bouquet of rose with pearls.

Pictures!

2009-09-15T09:16:00.005+08:00

Nerdy Me =D

OCC Dinner on 14th August 2009

(From Left: Zhen Song, Me, Niki, June)

My BIrthday surprise from Shu hua (Vancouver) & Stanley (Singapore) :D

14th September

2009-09-14T22:41:00.001+08:00

Today went to work as usual met hiccups here n there. Rcv a book on living with limitations from niki. Started reading rather meaningful. Went for tuition. Learnt that the maid went to the police somehow and she gotta stay working. for us until her debts are cleared. Meanwhile we still do as much as we can me folding n keeping my clothes, washing my shoes n bottles. It may seems simple but doing them after a long day say, 9pm can kill. Argh!!!

To make things worst, Blogger isn't allowing me to upload fotos! There are so much I want to show u guys! :(

13th september

2009-09-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hmm today I feel super accomplished. Y? Let me tell you:

- woke up to tidy my room n shoe rack, changed bedsheet, dry the bedsheet, heat up the previous night's dinner n eat it, watch "failure dog" drama n have a long nap. Then came the climax of the day!!!!

- went to tampines to meet stan to finish up our Project "ASS"!
First he was late cos he was slping -.- rite? Den some kid spilled a whole cup of iced milo on my jeans n neckermann sandals, and I can't go hm straight cos haven't start on the project yet. In the end, spent 2hrs plus doing it. Haish. Reached home at 10pm to realise there is a blanket hanging out of my window only to realise my maid climb out of the window by tying her blanket to my bed frame. And and and... this isn't the first time. Suay right!!!

- not to mention I almost have the chance to savour the taste of delicious international buffet of not for.... haish

Nevertheless, ALL WELLS SHALL BE WELL... in GOD'S CARE AMEN!

12th september

2009-09-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Today is Wei shan's birthday! Happy 22nd Wei shan:) !

- Today's gonna b a v bz day cos gotta rush to office before 11 to help out in the prayer session.

- after which is go bk hm n rest before going to sunset grill to witness ppl being tortured alive by the level 30 chicken wings while I enjoy my cheesy fries WHahaha!
Omg u shud c the expressions on the sufferers' faces damn hilarious can!! Lol they are mainly kenji, ah song, Mandy n Mr Cheng. Of which, ah song facial expression is the most comical of all!

- later in the nite join my big bro n my SIS in law in Lunar. Trust me, it wasn't fun... so I left for home cos I can't keep yawning while i was there. U guys dint c wrongly my big bro brought me to clubbing lol! Cool right? ;)

So. after I reached hm I went to bed shortly

22 Years old le

2009-09-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

Hi all... just turned 22 years old! hahahaa!!

hmmm... let me think... my 21st year passed rather quickly. too fast for me to realise what was happening...

this year didnt plan much celebrations. and it happen to be my bro's rom too.. so mostly was busying around the island for his ceremony. yea. kinda bored actually.

Finally it's a celebration without any involvement of any alcohol.. hahaa...

shu hua and stanley gave me a surprise on the day before my birthday.. real touched and surprised. reali... hahaa... shall upload and show u guys. :D

Nice Metaphors

2009-08-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

命运就像强奸，你反抗不了，就要学会享受。

工作就像轮奸，你不行就别人上。

人生就像自慰，什么都要靠自己双手。

前途就像做爱，有低潮也有高潮。

学习就像叫鸡，又要出钱又要出力。

朋友就像内裤，在尼大起大落时，总都包含着你。

好的朋友就像避孕套，时时刻刻都为你的安全着想。

更好的朋友就像伟哥，当你台不起头时给于你力量。

I am back

2009-08-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

Hell-O! You guys want updates right? ok....

Been busy lately... with work, and outings... dont even have time for my vcds.... been tired...

Shu Hua

2009-05-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

Actually. Nobody. Knows.

2009-05-03T22:54:00.001+08:00

dont really know what to say actually...

so i will just post what i am supposed to complete this coming week:

- Price charts that has been delayed for months..

- Updating of price lists...

- mafia

- still mafia-ing

- and mafia-ing!

Movies to look out for

2009-04-18T10:46:00.003+08:00

1. Fast & Furious 4 (Simply to look out for any funny soundtrack like "Tokyo Drift"

2. 17 Again (Cause i like this kind of storylines...)

3. Revolutionary Road (Cause it seems nice.)

okay guys... Went to catch Knowing last Saturday cause Fast & Furious was like super packed.. Anyway, Knowing is quite a nice show which i would recommend.. though i freaked out a few times.. hahah but seriously nice show.. movies by nic cage is always nice anyone second that??

this week quite depressing week for me cause i m experiencing insomia. yea.. mi as in jaren tay having insomia.. i am very tired. but when ever i close my eyes to slp on bed my mind juz wouldnt rest. it's so serious tat my eyes ache the next day and my head end up wif throbbing pain. i tell you.. seriously it's not a good thing to experience.

went to upgrade my mio plan last nite was told that my plan price is being revised to a cheaper rate. so happy... very poor now.. gotta save as much as i can. poor to the extent i reali have to avoid going out and eat bread. haish.. y? cos of some unforeseen expenses. grrr... yea GRRRR....

but no matter how broke i am i still wan to catch the 3 movies above. dun worry i wun ask u to pay for me.. i will still pay hahaa... still have some "Private-room-money" and guess wad?

I HAVENT BEEN DRINKING FOR ANY DAYS THIS WEEK! hahhaha! miracle or not?

Received a handful of replies regarding my blog. yes, i will continue to blog. thanks for showing interest in my life. =>

Song <3

2009-04-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

"Broken"

- By Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort,

it helps me sleep tonight

Maybe it can stop tomorrow

from stealing all my time

I am here still waiting

though i still have my doubts

I am damaged at best,

like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart,

I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart

that's still beating

In the pain,

there is healing

In your name

I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on,

I'm holdin' on,

I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning

you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded,

I'm an open book instead

I still see your reflection

inside of my eyes

That are looking for a purpose,

they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart,

I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

In the pain (in the pain),

is there healin

In your name (in your name)

I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day

Just to see what

you throw my way

And I'm hanging on

to the words you say

You said that I will

be OK

The broken lights on the freeway

left me here alone

I may have lost my way now,

haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart,

I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

In the pain(In the pain)

there is healing

In your name

I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you

My day

2009-04-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

hmmm... had a bad day at work... cause some hiccups here and there... still not solved though. and it's creating a constant headache for me. thinking of going on a break soon. but just cant finish my work so leave is still far far away from me.

Dear frend aso having a bad day as well so decided to go for a movie. wanted to catch this movie "Hotel for dogs" badly but suay is suay la... the movie stop screening though it only started on 19th march... saded... in the end we went T3 cause i suddenly realised i haven been to T3 since its opening till now. and it's been like a year or so! hahaha yea. i just remember Singapore has a T3 today. hahaha...

so we walked around the whole T3 and realised that the viewing gallery is a crap place of the airport. cause you cant view the planes as clearly as it's like from the other 2 terminals... crap lor... and i seriously dont see how nice it is as claimed by most people.. hahah.. sorry i have no sense of archi. was heading to the carpark then sh suggested me driving her home in simon's car. i've been having phobia of driving simon's car cause i always tend to have mini accidents while driving his cars. i dont know why hur... so she dared me. and i drove her back... in 20 mins time i reach her car. without much hiccups. namely 2 hiccups, one due to the car's gear. : but i tink mainly i improved alot driving manual cars. given that i was very much being distracted by dearest sh along the way home. hahaa.. think once i got my directions clear all problems are solved. hahaha..

thats all.... dont know why i decided to share so much on blog lately. maybe cause i know there will be some people reading it. :) thanks everyone!!

Mockery

2009-04-06T23:20:00.003+08:00

Some traits in my paternal family which i super dislike, loathe and hate. one of it is mockery.

one family in particular would go around asking for news about other children's work, studies. I mean if it's like for care and concern sake, yes i would definitely let you know. but when you are finding out to mock and to despise please... stay far and away!

the children of their family are like accountant, engineers and potential high earners. but what's the point if they are such a show off and arrogant? i mean education level doesnt show much if you dont have any virtues. Not saying that i have but i definitely wouldnt go around despising and gossipping about others' children studying in ITE and earning low salaries.

isnt it obvious that people dont want you to know about our lives to think that you keep asking my parents every week. i decided to study part time not because i am dumb or i cant make it to local universities. but because i see the importance of supporting myself throughout the years of university. I see the importance of gaining work experience while studying too. I dont just wanna spend all my time focusing on studies. i want to do beyond my limits. though i know it's hard. but if i ever managed to survive through it it's a good thing for me right? to me i view it as a goal.. not as a compulsory path i must lead in life. so dont view me part time study as a dumb choice for i know you will definitely think that way.

that time when i withdraw from JC you already scolded me dumb once. i will remember it always. in time to come, we shall see who is the dumb one. notice that i use the word "withdraw" and not drop out. for i noe i will survive if i put in more efforts. but i just dint want it to. so please respect others' choice. not all JC students are high earners if you are thinking in that directions. seriously i am disgusted why i have such uncle and auntie. in the past you used to look down on my parents cause you earn more than him from stocks. now that stocks have tumbled, you are broke you used your children to look down on us. shame on you!

P.S: I would like to thank my big brother for all his support and encouragement in all my decisions no matter how people view me. Thanks Bro!

Finally

2009-04-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

i did what i should have done long ago. thank god for the courage.

Just when you thought that it's the worst.......

2009-03-28T11:07:00.002+08:00

Sent my phoneSSS for repair: one under warranty (Nokia) another one out of warranty (SE)

Nokia called me ytd and tell me they are voiding my warranty... like WTH!!!! for wad? and below is a copy of complaint letter I have typed to them.. Well, not sent yet... but will not hesitate to publish it on the newspaper first....

"To whom it may concern

I am writing this email in response to my unpleasant experience with Nokia Care Centre which may adversely affect my decisions in buying any Nokia products in future.

I bought my phone N95 8GB on 14th September 2008 at Compassvale point Hello! Shop. Shortly on the 6th day I bought it, I dropped the phone from a mid body height. Beside a few scratches on the surface and that the phone cracked open which I pressed it back with a little force, everything is alright once again.

Up till last Saturday, 21/03/09, I was caught in a heavy downpour suddenly and when I went to an enclosed area, I realized that the phone has a few problems. One of which is that one of the buttons appeared to be faulty affecting other keys as well. After a few times of restarting the phone, the phone recovered to its normal state.

However, as of yesterday, 26/03/09, the phone was totally not functioning. Therefore, I decided to send to the Nokia Care centre located at Wheelock Place since my phone is still under warranty.

Today, 27/03/09, Nokia staff contacted me telling me that my phone was being tampered by non Nokia authority, and there is liquid substance at the keypad area . She further declared that my phone warranty is void. She did provide me with a solution claiming that I could still send for repair at a cost of SGD$80 – SGD$150 with 50% chance that the phone will be repaired. Her words gave me the impression that Nokia products are vulnerable to a few minutes of rain even thou the phone was in the bag when I was caught in the rain . It is either that or she is implying that Singtel Hello! shops sell tampered products.

I must clarify my stand, that is:-

1. I am the owner of my phone and I know very well, no one had tampered with my phone before since the purchase of this phone. and neither has I left my phone with 2nd party before.
2. With my busy schedule, I was not able to make a trip down to Nokia care centre right after the phone had dropped esp the phone was functioning well after the incident had happened. Any sensible person will not have to do that plus its a well know fact how crowded Nokia Care centre is even during weekday.
3. I trust that Nokia would repair my phone since it’s still under warranty.

There are a few questions I would like to ask: -

1. What is the use of the warranty if you can declare the warranty void like this?
2. Is this kind of after-sales service consumers should expect from Nokia?
3. Is any investigation being carried to conclude with the conclusion that the phone was being tampered by non Nokia authority ?
4. Should I question the quality of Nokia products?
5. Are you implying that Singtel sells tampered products?

Given all these explanations and questions, I trust that you would like provide me with proper remedies and explanation for the above within 3 working days . Last but not least, I would like to stress my stand that I would not take up the offer and I would expect that Nokia will fix the issue for me at no charge incurred. Please know that this kind of service is totally unacceptable, and severely mars the image of Nokia. This would undoubtedly affect future decisions in purchasing any Nokia products at all. Also, there are heavy implications made by your staff based on groundless words. I will not hesitate to send a copy of this email to the forum should there be any need. "

Bad Day

2009-03-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

Argh! Super Unlucky today! how can 2 phones spoilt on the same day?! tell me... how could it be possible!? argh!!!!

just got back from repairing the phoneSSSSSS! one under warranty another one... just over...

it estimates to cost me FREAKING $145 for the repair!!! wth... I only used it for like 6 months.. and haven been using it for last 6 months... how bad is tat? u tell me... super angry... argh!

damn broke this month le... haish... so much for financial planning... the more i plan the worst i get... so why plan.... :<

What was I doing on Saturday?

2009-03-22T16:33:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... was cycling in East Coast Park yesterday afternoon... I must say I really enjoy alot. Cycling down the beach really makes me feel relaxed and happy. I enjoyed the breese the waves brings to me. I enjoyed the sights of the boats and ships parking or sailing across the sea. The only thing I dont enjoy is the crowd on the beach. Hmmm... I still prefer Pasir Ris Park though it's smaller but at least i think i can enjoy the true peace.. ahahaha...

Shu hua dint know how to cycle until yesterday. the 2 guys taught her how to. after tat she is like breezing past us a few times. hahaha not bad sia... managed to learn cycling in less den 2 hours. impressive! but i bet she is going to forget it by next week :X opps! hahahaha

we dint cycle for long before it starts to rain heavily, so we decided to go back home and wash up. shu hua came and bathed in my house, whereas stanley went over to simon's place. after that was MAHJONG time. hahahaha i can barely keep my eyes open tat time. hahaha too tired.. almost have to resort to using toothpicks to keep my eyes open hahaha not exaggerating lor.. true!

I have a secret

2009-03-21T09:36:00.003+08:00

Bet you heard this over and over again a thousand zillion times.

- "I just want to love and be loved back."

Well, this is exactly what I was thinking since don't know when...

Hmm.. these 2 weeks have been a period of hectic days for me. With projects ending and starting at the same time, I think I am like a crazy woman running about in the office. It's been a long while since I am that busy. Hahahaa.. BUTBUTBUT, no matter how busy I am I still find time to do friend-visiting in Pet Society. Hahaha. Been taking alot of tests in Facebook. Most of it are accurate in my opinions. hahaha.

Going cycling in a about 15 mins time. yet i am feeling kinda slpy.. hahahaa...

yes.. in regards to my title. i have a secret shared with another person. when the time is ripe, i will release out the news.

Spot on!

2009-03-15T20:16:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Wrong bet

2009-03-11T22:20:00.002+08:00

Jaren placed the wrong bet. what can i sae?

i kinda deserved this anyway. thought i got prepared for this. but somehow i m still feeling bad. very bad. strong front is very important now. dont feel like doing anything except at home. but i gotta work. so i guess i need to be strong. no matter wad...

After CNY

2009-02-20T10:12:00.002+08:00

Harrow after so long.. now in the office. supposed to be doing stuffs..but here i m typing an entry before i get started and be occupied for the rest of the day.

Hmm... thoughts now swiming in my mind. why am i so affected by others regardless it's words, actions or hidden meanings.? been trying real hard to get rid of this stupid habit of mine. but as much as i tried i just cant do it. i wonder why. recently quite affected by a particular incident not worth mentioning much. but it just darken my mood for the week. tried dismissing the bad mood by attempting to get out for a movie, but it's either peeps arent free or i m just too lethargic to do so. this cant go on. so i m planning to go for a drink later tonight. to get rid of whatever that needs to be out of my mind. whether its temporary or permanently.

okay.lets tok abt sth light-hearted (i think it is?). i dreamt about my own funeral last night. thats not the funny part. the funny part is someone sms mi b4 i slpt tat we would meet in the dreams. haha guess wad i did meet that person in dream that is when that person was attending my funeral. LOL! I msged and told that person about it. and was being chided as lame. -.-

but honestly, this isnt the first time i dreamt about me being dead. just tat i seldom say it out. this time my cause of death was that i was being knocked down by a lorry. nope i dint managed to take down the license plate number. i was dead remember!? guess either i will be dead very soon? or i will live a long life as dreams always depicts the opposite of life isnt it? haha..

just something to share with you guys. ciaoz~

Stop thinking about just yourself.

2009-01-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

we are not ppl who have ample free
time. stop asking out when you are free and cancelling the outing on last min.
it's frigging irritating. start to think of others. and if u ever want to
organise an outing make sure you personally contact everyone and not pass the
freaking task to others. this is known as respect. apparently you dun have any
for others. for others to respect u learn to respect others too. stop thinking
you are always right cause you might be wrong some times or most of the times
too. stop giving your opinions when not asked. it's very bossy of you. we are
not on 24hrs standby FYI.

Something Happen

2009-01-11T23:28:00.004+08:00

Phrases going through my mind at this moment:

" so near yet so far"

"最爱的人不是你

这不只让你伤心

但我心里还在枯等

一个远去身影

最爱的人不是你

却忍不住爱上你我真的爱你

但永远无法像爱她般爱你"

"maybe it's not meant to be"

"I shouldn't think too much or rather expect too much in the first place"

"she still holds an important place in his heart."

"maybe it has been one sided all these while"

"everything has been gg too smoothly for me"

"i should have anticipated some hiccups along the way."

"what should i do?"

"persist or give up"

"i cant take this anymore"

"if it's meant to be, it'll be"

"they should be together"

"finally, the bubble burst."

Xiamen photos

2009-01-07T11:54:00.054+08:00

Photos from Xiamen

2009-01-06T11:53:00.058+08:00

Japanese Embassy with a prison chamber in the basement

Mohammad go-head-go-stan

Don't do this when you are drunk!

This is what kind of toilet you get when you don't use Kingston services.

First post of the year. (2009)

2009-01-05T17:51:00.002+08:00

Hi all! Happy New year to all... though it seems a little late... haha... but it better den never wish at all right?

new year new resolutions. Heard from the radio one morning that making new year resolutions isnt a good thing. cos making new year resolutions means you are not happy with your self being.meaning you r feeling inferior in some ways. which will make you develop some illness like depression. hahaa... this is according to some experts in london. hahahh but i seriously think it's crap. cos i think it's a way of self reflection thingy..

so this year my new year my resolutions are like drink less alcohol, sleep more and hehe... =D find a good partner... yeah... i guess it's time... hahahaha... but not just any ah mao ah kow... must have "chemistrym physics and biology" hahaha and some sparks... ahhaaa =P...

ok my laptop died and my bro sae it's best to buy a new one which will be around march the next PC Fair... so i will updating my blog in office. and uploading china photos soon!!! look forward to it ok?

cya!!

my week

2008-12-18T11:11:00.003+08:00

Jaren is currently very bored at work. the worst thing on earth is you are free... yet you have to pretend to be busy.

while wondering what i can do in the office, i decided to blog. no thoughts in mind, so maybe i shall just blog about my whole week.

monday: nothing much happen just to work until 5 and meet stan and shu hua at Plaza Singapore to buy my winter wear! haha 89bucks at FOX. saw it while shopping with birdman a week back... but was comtemplating to buy anot. (mainly cos the temperature in Xia men was still 10deg cel back then a week ago.) but after that ah cheng told me the temperature is dropping everyday. ask me not to wait till reach china then buy. so i quickly went to buy. bought a white one though the gang told me the black one looks nicer on me. Actually i wanted to get the black one as well cause those who know me well very well understand that i tend to dirty my clothes easily. hehez...

we had our dinner at Billy Bombers'. It was a fulling dinner. Shu Hua was saying that her head was throbbing the whole night. And stan was commenting that he hadnt been joining us for a drink(s) for a long long long time. so in order to make shu hua head feel better (which is so not true) and to let stan have a drink(S) with us before he left for hongkong we decided to go to have a drink(s).

we went to timbré at mount sophia. climbed a long flight of stairs which shu hua claimed that it's killing her cause ¾ part of her nose is not functioning. haha! after 10 minutes, we reach the "peak" of Mount Sophia. "Planted our flag there" and we moved on to the restaurant. Guess we were lucky that night as it happened to be their happy hour whole night for MOndays with live band as well. haha....

First round, 3 Erdingers for all 3 of us. I personally dint try it before but shu hua did warned us that it's a killer as she was "killed" by it the first time she tried it. the first mouth of it was like any other beer, in fact we were commenting that it was milder than others. How wrong we were! it was getting slowly to us every mouth we take. by the time i finished my my face i guess it was "ROYAL Flush!" - FLush red. haha . but i was still able to make my way to the toilet straight without toppling at all.

Speaking of the toilet, let me side track abit. the very first minute i stepped into the toilet i was able to identify the models and brands of the fittings and fixtures. so u guys have any ideas of how professional i m? haha!

ok back to the drinking session. after drinking about half of a pint, shu hua sae that her erdinger doesnt feel nice mayb cos she's sick or sth so she order her reccomended mocktails/cocktails, (i cant make a difference actually) - Sakura. stanley order "Jagerbomb" and i order a dish of buffalo wings. BIg mistake again! it was making me breathing out fire la! sho spicy! killing me. haha.. so i dint manage to finish aft a mere 2 pcs of wings. decided to ta bao. haha.. den finish up shu hua's erdinger. wondered if she is right or i drank it after eating the wings, it does taste different from ours.

after that we decided to order shooters.. haha.. the whole exciting point of the night. i order 6 shots of "sex on the beach" (i wonder if i was drunk or sth cos i actually remember shu hua saeing that we are not at the beach y we order that) lol.. but this tiem ard, we dun juz split the the shots wad we did is we play scissors, paper, stone. loser down it. shu hua was exempted again. but she played on behalf of stan

Results out: S4: J2 where the number stands for the number of shots taken by the person. haha!!!

after that another round of 6 Kamekazi! For those who drink and read my blog, PLEASE DONT ORDER THAT! it's super spicy/burning/hot i duno wad you called it. it just very la" lor! i had to hit myself after downing it. can die! i left 4 for stan and 2 i take reali can die! after that we end liao juz left lor.. den go home lor.. on the way home crazy moments, mayb the driver regretted taking us in. haaha!

tuesday? work and slpt from 6pm to 6.40am the next morning. hehe power leh!

wednesday? the best day of my week so far. went to work as usual. had a fabulous and fun lunch with one of my suppliers and her colleague. it was fun and it felt like having lunch with friends rather than those work meals if you know wad i mean.had lunch from 12.30pm to 2pm. way exceeded my lunch time. this really make mi feel like time passed real fast when you r enjoying moments. scenarios like this make mi feel very attached to this job. cant imagine when i left this company. :'(

can only enjoyed another 6months the most. well, guess i must make the best of it. :)

Christmas

2008-12-17T11:41:00.003+08:00

Aloha... I have decided! i must update my blog as often as possible. haha... Been Procrastinating it alot. haha

hmmm lets c.... wads there to update.

random 1: berd's being a caveman since 10th dec 2008. totally lost news about him. haha... guess he staying on some tree top.

random 2: stan's out of country TO HONGKONG (GRR!) since 16th dec. He better bring me back my husband who's rumored to be on the verge on being retrenched. *Sob*

random 3: I am leaving on christmas eve to a place where the people there dont celebrate Christmas *Sob*

random 4: New year is coming. Any recommendations on how to celebrate?

random 5: I am so planning to stay on a healthy lifestyle after reading the following:

An email I received:

"CANCER"

Treatment and Prevention: Under weakly alkaline condition, cancerous cells are not able to grow, or even to survive.

About 30 years ago, a Mr. Zhang who worked in the Public Sales Department of a Taipei Brewery, sat for Overseas Study Selection Examination, and passed with flying colours. Before leaving, unfortunately, the medical examination at a public hospital discovered that he had a tumour growth in his lung about the size of a child's fist. Thus, he was not able to make the overseas trip for further study.

Mr. Zhang was very disappointed. He had the feeling that the diagnosis could be wrong. So he went for a 2nd check-up in another hospital but the result confirmed that there was no error in the previous diagnosis. The young Mr. Zhang was in great despair after the confirmation. He made several calls to Mr. Wei, his old classmate who was the Mayor's secretary of Huangsun County , Taidong County Government. On hearing the sad news, Mr. Wei rushed to Taipei to see Mr. Zhang on Sunday. Mr. Zhang briefed Mr. Wei in detail about his despair and pessimism, and entrusted his friend regarding his affairs after his death. It happened that Mr. Wei was a good friend of Dr Lu Geling, who in 1949-55 was in charge of the Maijie Hospital , and was a researcher and specialist in cancer. He suggested to Mr. Zhang to seek Dr Lu's treatment immediately. Mr. Zhang initially refused to consult doctor anymore as the result might add further misery to him.

But Mr. Wei said that he had called Dr Lu and made an appointment with him. So Mr. Zhang felt obligated and went with Mr. Wei to meet Dr Lu. When meeting Mr. Zhang, Dr Lu said: " Mr. Wei is my best friend and he has introduced you to me. We are fated to know each other. Let me ask you do you know why is that cancer is referred to as terminal illness?" Both Mr. Zhang and Mr. Wei did not know how to answer. Dr Lu explained: " There are only 2 approaches so far to treat cancer today. The 1st is to destroy the source of the disease. The 2nd is to increase the immunity to fight the disease.

But the strange thing is that, whether we use Cobalt 60 or other drugs to destroy the cancerous cells, before they are killed, the good cells are destroyed first.. On the other hand, no matter what nutrients or supplements we use, before the good cells have a chance to absorb them, the cancer cells have taken them up. This simply speeds up the growth of cancer. Therefore, both approaches are doomed to fail, that is why cancer is terminal." Dr Lu continues: "Human beings are the most intelligent creatures and they had successfully put men on the moon. But why there is no one ever questioned the above 2 approaches for cancer treatment which lead to ultimate death, and try to look for a 3rd approach?

When I was conducting clinical research in Majie Hospital , I had many opportunities to work with many colleagues who had assisted me in the hospital. I found out that the blood tests of cancer patients showed 100% acidic results. Those Buddhist monks and nuns who are long term vegetarians and live very close to Nature, their blood are prevalently weakly alkaline and none of them has yet been detected of any cancer illness. Therefore, I can boldly concluded that under weakly alkaline condition, cancerous cells are not able to grow, or even to survive. Mr. Zhang, I would suggest that starting from now you must reduce your intake of the acidic meaty dishes. Consume more alkaline food. Also you can take green algae and soup made from water chestnuts with skin. Modify your physical condition, and try seriously to have a regular life style which is close to Nature. If you live for another 5 years, you should have no further problem. Best of luck."

Mr. Zhang followed Dr Lu's suggestion and was serious in changing his eating habits. Every day, he ate green algae, drank chestnut soup, became optimistic and did an appropriate amount of exercise. One year later, he went back to the same public hospital for a check up. It was found that the tumour not only did not increase in size, but was also skrinking. It's a miracle to the hospital staff who examined him. Five years later, the tumour had shrunk to almost disappearing stage. Now after almost 40 years, Mr. Zhang's health is totally normal, and is living a very pleasant life. After Mr. Zhang's case, a Mr.. Chen Tianshou, who was previously Head of the General Administration of the Taidong Provincial Hospital, was also diagnosed with lung cancer.

When Mr. Wei knew about it, he told Mr. Chen what Mr. Zhang had gone through. Mr. Chen started to follow Dr Lu's recommendation of changing his physical condition. Just like the case of Mr. Zhang, he was able to recover fully from the cancer. At that time, Dr. Lu and his family had migrated to the United States . When he returned to Taiwan and met up with Mr. Wei, he was told of the 2 cases of Mr. Zhang and Mr. Chen. Mr. Wei suggested that let both of them make detailed briefings in person, so that Dr. Lu could publish a report on this self-curing method. Dr Lu very humbly replied: 'I am too old and I do not have any clinical records of the cases. Please tell your friends and relatives, if they agree, please continue and spread the words to others" One should take care of oneself and also should be caring about others. 85% of cancer patients are having acidic condition in their physical bodies.

Long random it is... shall end here....

Psst... I input a new song... nice?

Life.

2008-11-14T13:08:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't know what life i am leading, what path I am heading.

I am losing focus, losing touch with many close friends, most importantly losing touchign with my family.

I don't what to say, maybe i shouldn't say anything now. but i really feel that the life i m leading now, is unbearable.

D.I.L.E.M.M.A

2008-11-03T10:38:00.002+08:00

3 Dec 2008 or 6 June 2009

WHich one should i go? i MUST go HK. but with who? below are the points taken for my analysis. you guys read n tell mi pls.. giv me advice:

--> ANALYSIS 1:
if i go in dec, the bad points are: i have to apply no pay leave, canot go wif mum so feel guilty, pay myself, dec i will still need to set aside money to pay for my company trip, no family wif me feel sad.

the good points are: get to go out wif my fren, den she will bring mi to some youngsters hang ard de place which mum will not approve, cooling weather, free acccomodation.

--> ANALYSIS 2:
If go in june, bad points are: hot weather, high expenses, no fren to bring us to places where hongkies hang ard, no late nites.

the good points are: going with mum, so mum's paying, still can go to HK. so can shopping. family outing.

Random

2008-10-14T22:58:00.003+08:00

"Never ask what others can give you; ask what can you give others."

Guess what

2008-10-11T09:06:00.001+08:00

Understatement of the year:

" I'm the worst girlfriend anyone could have."

Latest Pictures

2008-10-05T09:47:00.012+08:00

Reminiscing the past

2008-10-05T09:37:00.002+08:00

Things i miss

miss the walks we had along esplanade, in suntec and marina....

miss the silence that accompanied us during these times.

miss the type of feelings i carry my backpack while walking.

miss the show performing at the fountain of wealth.

miss the companionship of the foursome/fivesome.

I wonder

so...when's everything coming back to me again?

or... are they going to return at all?

Hiya!

2008-10-03T16:40:00.003+08:00

Aloha! now at work but reali dont feel like continuing doing esp that it's oni 19 minutes from knock off.. later gotta run back change and meet shu hua... watching a bimbotic show later.. known as the house bunny. after that planning to home sweet home. wad have i been doing recently?

hmm... honestly nothing. gotta start the a/c for august soon. have to start by this sat. no matter wad. haha *no matter wad partying activities i have* haha.

recently many problems arise irregardless it's mine problems or my frens'. but whatever i juz hope the problems will be settled soon. cos i m not one who work well under stress and pressure... and i have to say out someting: "I HAVE WHITE HAIR!" kill mee... someone kill me... this phenomenon havent been coming out for like 3 years.. so why come out now... argh!

will any good soul save my blog? i wan to include music (Flo Rida) and my cbox.. *no offense Cheryl but i miss my cbox :'( *

Randoms&Updates

2008-09-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

Hey GUys! How're Ya doing!?

I m officially 21 Years old for the past *lets see...* 8 Days!... It feels *great* Reali!. you guys shud try... (As IF you have a choice.. haha!)

Let me Recount a few days before i turned 21 and a few days after that....

*3 Days bef0re*

I planned and celebrated my party in advance with a big bang! haha! many frens and family came over... with PRESENTS of cause!! (oh... btw... i juz LuRRRve Presents.! and a big THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU there!). I was damn busy to the extent that i dint eat which result in DISASTROUS ending afterwards. haha with an empty stomach and nice make up *performed by Shu hua, Thank you girl!* i got drunk.

That's it. I. Got. Drunk.

To what extent? .. oh nothing much just to the extent that i toppled over n over again. leaning on whatever that is straight. haha.... bumped my ear to the wall.. butbutbut.... Overall I was Sober! haha amazing but true. hmmm... den many pals helped mi here and there.. i feel damn bad cos the next morning my parents sort of chided me that i dint entertain my guests much... :( *bad host i m*

*2 Days before*

So on sunday, we checked out and home sweet home. after settling the stuffs... i call n smsed every1 i can to apologize. hmmm... Moral of the story here: It feels good to be drunk... eh... nono... erase. hmmm... guess it's something like: Know your limits. (*but then again who cares!* haha). After that, it's back to normal life. driving lesson and stuff...

*1 day before*

Back to work day. Super tired and hectic life. den work work work like cow... *moo...* all the way until 10pm (includes tuition) then return home. K-O at 11.45pm. (Quick, someone ask me why i remember so clearly!)

*B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y day*

Went to work. Wrong move. then many things happen. mostly unhappy ones. den praying hard thruout the 8 hours for time to pass quickly. finally it pass.. supposed to go for dental appt. (pathetic rite? i noe...) but in the end i decided to skip it for shu hua (cos i decided not to be pathetic). haiz.. ppl birthday arranged to meet her lor... in the end she surprised me wor... by arranging boyfriend to appear. everything was alright until the movie. super sucky la... fell aslp even before the movie starts. all the way until he ask mi to leave. den i left. den home sweet home to zzz... cos super tired and rough day.

*Fast FWD to Friday*

Met the gang at clarke quay at 7pm. haha new memebers recruited. haha... mainly junliang, kelvin and Mervin. Before i start the story, I must say a big big SORRY to mainly mervin and kelvin (junliang? heck care la... j/k) sorry mervin for *u noe wad i did*, sorry kelvin for slapping you.. haha...

we had waraku pasta. den after that it's roaming about looking a place to setttle and story time. so we settled at fashion bar. which i think i will not stepped into it anymore. haha ... shu hua dearest ordered a bottle of 42Below (something me and stanley will have "fond" memories about). we finished it in 15mins. Yeah you Heard me - 15mins! after it's almost gone case for me. haha but i went on to order 2 jug mixer. the guys order 4 graveyards i think.. after tat i duno. dun ask. shall keep a secret. for less troubles.

*Saturday*

Woke up super early (Consider how late i reached home the previous nite), to get ready to set down for a study session with Shu hua in SMU (whoa... my dream school). In the end, i finished my student's work and her who has test lining up for her, did only facebooking and frenstering.. well there are some assignments done i think... some oni... hahaa :P. after that at nite, went to eeleen's lantern gatherings. after that it's bro's home for mahjong session ( 2 late nites for me, you can picture how black my eyes are now)

*Sunday*

Wanted to slp late. but arranged to meet someone for brunch so woke up at 9 to hear the phone ring simultaneously. haha! den went to jalan kayu for prata. ate until super full and bloated before returning to finish my a/c work. finally finish at 3. den settle to go for driving after that it's working at woodlands. den reach home K-O!

*Looking forward to Saturday*

Aiming to knocked down shu hua on her birthday, *gathering allies now* those who are in register with me through sms or some other matter (telepathy?)

Some Randoms:

1) Need to get my eyebrows done... turning into a berry bush (Try Picturing eyebrows as leaves and red pimples as berries. Get the Picture?)

2)Need to get a dress for dearest pal's birthday.

3)Need to find a way to kidnap her to drink on Saturday (hmmm...o.O actually do i need to? i Bet she is gg wif us voluntarily. Just Dun Let Her Touch The bottle! )

Hi Ya~

2008-08-14T14:40:00.003+08:00

Hi Everyone! I m Back MIss MOi?! o.O

Someone told me to update my blog as it's rusty. so I am back with a "brand New start".

I want to make this new entry meaningful for me and everyone else but i just don't know what to write. THEN i remember something! I told Someone last friday that i will make a comeback on my blog by entering a birthday wishlist entry. Meaningful enough? hahaha~

so here it goes (for a long long way) :

1. Crumpler SoupanSalad (with orange innerparts!)

2. Watches (I lurrvvve watches!)

3. Sporting Jackets (I lurrveee Jackets as well)~~

4. Bags, clutches, etc....

So far that's all... isit too much???

Losing my thoughts

2008-06-05T20:36:00.003+08:00

Just when I am beginning to feel some love around me, you took it all away.

Just when I am starting to look forward to spending time with you after 5pm, you diminished all my anticipation.

Used to feel that my brain is spinning too much stories, way too much I can afford to digest.

But now, I guess I have been putting false fronts all the while, giving myself a big and long excuse.

Used to think that the problem lies with me, but i guess now you have showed me what is really going on.

Now I finally understand why I am ended up like this....

"Maybe I don't deserved to be loved at all. "

Yet all the while, I have been covering it up nicely by finding faults with others.

Now, I know why I am independent in some ways and dependent in another ways.

Reason being: I am being shaped like this since young, believe it or not.

Seriously, thanks for all the false hopes you have given me.

I think it's time for me to say I really give up this time round.

Photo Bash!

2008-05-29T18:38:00.025+08:00

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - the Six-some

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - the Six-some full portraits!

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Quick! I want to eat!~

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Me & Wan Teng (Good Buddies)

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Me & Wan Ying

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Me & Yanti

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Hehez....MOre & More & More!!

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Me & the Birthday Girl~

Germaine's birthday 22nd March - Me & the Long Lost "Sister"

4b '03 Class Chalet 2007 (28th Dec 2007)

Desmond with 3 beanies on his ice - Resemble an ice cream cone though.

R.I.P 22nd August 2007 - My Puppy Milkie

Red Ruby - Vodka Red

28th October 2007 - Esther's Birthday Celebration - "Watches Display" *Desmond's Fake!*

"Since when Desmond join The Simpsons?"

Ever seen 2 Kukus around?

hmmm.. How should I say it? To sum it all, "Guys are dumb." you agreE?

This juz further proven my point above.

Does this photo look natural? I sneaked it in. haha!

Haha First time ever! It just feel shiok!

I need another one! Fast!

Graduation 2008

2008-05-29T18:32:00.003+08:00

Yoz Yoz Yoz! I am back!

today is my graduation Day~ Happy shall be posting up my photos soon! haha if blogspot cooperate with me. and Frenster too.. someone explain to me why cant i post up photos pleasE?

P.S: I wanna thank Sze Yuan Sincerely for her time and efforts in spending her day with me today! especially being more patient then me towards my mum.. haha bringing her around making her happy! haha... will date u out for movie one of these days!

Notification of Possible MIA-ing

2008-04-07T13:38:00.002+08:00

This is to notify my the readers of this blog that it is likely that the owner of this blog, that is me, will most probably go on a break from all forms of communications such as MSN, Blogging, SMS and Phonecalls.

There is no single reason that influenced me into making this decision. The underlying factor is that I am currently undergoing a major change in my lifestyle and i think i need to revamp the way i wan to live my life a little bit. I feel that I am very unhappy this few days due to someone leaving my life without any signs of notice. This seriously upsets me as I believe everything should have a beginning and an ending. A responsible person should not start some actions and lose all actions out of a sudden. My friend once told me: The whole episode is just like fishing. The guy would try all sort of ways to lure the fishes to the bait. The fishes might not want to be bait but is happy that there are bait wriggling around in the water. And then, just when the fishes started to get close to the bait the bait shifted its directions without any signs. when the fishes follow and swim close to the bait the bait actually reject the fishes. This actually pisses the fishes off. I mean, being me, I would appreciate that the bait would give a sign or two to the fishes. No need some big actions but small actions such as shifting the bait way slower than it is. However, this is not the case.

The above refers to a conversation i have with one of my close friends, any similarity is purely coincidence.

I will notice all my friends when i will be back.

-I just wanna take a short break that badly-

new post

2008-03-27T12:17:00.002+08:00

二零零八年三月二十五日雨天

现在的我正在收拾我的心情，准备开始过一个人的生活。不知道会如何但是如果不试试，没人会知道的。

拖了这么久，终于放下了。心里是不好受的但是为了彼此，这个痛苦是必然的。

忍着点吧，思琳！加油！你能做到的！ = ）

至于威翔你呢，我相信你能找到比我个好的女孩子。你也要加油。

About Me.

2008-03-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

been working in "the OFFICE" for about 3 weeks now. finally understand why my parents was wondering if i can survive the outside world. it's a world full of sceptical and cunning ppl. there are wonderful ppl yet there are devil-icious ppl as well.. when u meet up wif this kind of ppl u will have to practise one thing in mind. that is MIND OVER BODY. restrain yourself from violently abuse them.

being a direct person it's not easy for me. cos if i cant control hard enuf i will cause alot of troubles

so wad i can oni sae now is: "when the going get tough, ONLY the tough get going."

Work!

2008-02-23T15:14:00.002+08:00

Haha.. Long time no hear from me leh? been adapting to my work life so i din have the time to update.

First 3 day at work:

Was very hectic for me. as i have to learn new things as well as do the routine tasks such as issuing POs. after staying there for like a week or so, i find the first 3 days harder to live by as i do not know too many of my colleagues and the products like who we should order from. so, i am very prone to get chided by my trainers and manager. However, i quickly adpated to the life after my trainer's much efforts and much practising. this week life was much better to spend by as i begin to know what i should do w/o much asking.

now i m slowly adapting to my life and i think i will survive thru my work. juz like no wi m supposed to be at home by 12 juz now as todae was my half day work.. but i have to attended to last min orders as well as clearing my stuffs due from the week. so when i was done it was like 2 plus.. but now i was waiting for my colleagues to hitch a lift home. haha!

on another aspects, i think i will hang around well with my colleagues ba.. haha hope so. i tink they are a great bunch of colleagues to hang around with. ahaha... i find that time pass faster when with them. hahah.. but don't worry i wont forget my poly mates and sec frens.

any thing u want to know from my work life juz tag my board. if i can remember i will tell u.. ok?

委屈

2008-01-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

可能是看了许多港剧吧，使我现在十分想要用华语来跟你们说说我现在的心情。

我现在的心情就如我的标题一模一样：委屈。或许我以向来都是这样只是没有想到好的方法来传达给你们。不知从几何时，我就已近学会了委屈的意识，可能从我很小很小的时候吧。那时的我不知道这就叫委屈持知道心口有很辛苦很辛苦的感觉，而这不舒服的感觉每次都会在我一个人的时候忽然的在我的胸口出现。在那里呆了很多很多天才离开。有时还会在晚上睡觉前偷偷静静地哭起来。一只哭到累才可以安静地睡去。

后来长大了，才发现道，这个感觉每次在我被骂的时候才会发生，奇怪的是，我每次被骂都不是我的错。令我不能理解的是，为什么不管我做得再好都会被骂，而不是夸奖获得到欣赏？这个道理我一直不明白知道我在长大一些，我才明白原来错不在于我，也不是在于我是否有没有努力，而是他们眼里其实根本都看不到我的好，只看得到我哥哥的好。甚至连他的不好都没发觉到。

就是在这时候，我开始对这家感觉大一种莫名的失落感。我觉得不管我多努力反正都没人注意，倒不如我也别对这家付出那么多。4个字：心灰意冷其实我都知道这样是错的，但是我实在是忍得很辛苦。能说的，我都说了。能做的，我也做了。实在没办法了。

上个礼拜，我向他们说了我想要上大学，我所得到地回应竟然是他们说他们不像我去上大学。那时的我忽然想到的念头是：“他们到底是不是我的父母亲？而我是不是他们的女儿啊？” 老实告诉你们：这个问题从很小很小的时候就有了。想必我的小时候有多东西要想吧。我再也说不下去了，在此停笔。

NOTICE! NOTICE! NOTICE!

2008-01-18T00:46:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone i am offering tuition services for:

- English, Maths, Science and Chinese for Primary School levels.

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My words for you. Hope you read it.

2008-01-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

Actually I have a lot of things to tell you. But, everytime i want to tell you and while we are on the phone, you would tend to give me those tones and you would sound like either you are slping or you are busy playing games. these are the attitudes/tones that I HATE hearing and I have told you many times that i don't want to hear it. Because once i hear it, the feeling of wanting to tell you all the interesting/non-interesting things would diminish immediately.

You might be complaining to youself why everytime i sound harsh and uncaring towards you when we were on the phone. But have you ever think of the reasons why i do that? I once told you that sometimes we quarrel because you are always doing the right things at the wrong times. yet this time around, you are getting from bad to worst, you are doing the wrong things at the wrong time. I don't know why but as your girlfriend, i tried my best to talk to you nicely before turning harsh. But seriously, Have you ever listen? i tried telling you nicely yet you give me faces. black faces that implies to me that you feel that you did not do anything wrong. in fact if you were given a chance you would have rebutted me back. you are always thinking you are perfect, it's either that or you don't even think over what i said. sometimes i really don't know what to do with you. you are not like others guys i know. i am not having a normal relationship either. in simple terms, you have changed. in bad terms, you are more stubborn now. and the results of you changing this way? - is me having a hard time now.

sometimes it might be because of me throwing my tantrums around. and i sincerely wanted to apologise to you but most of the times is all because of you. and because of all these i end up being more unhappy than usual. as i cant release all the anger i have in me and also you add it more by doing things i don't like. it seems like you don't take what i sae into considerations. and that i have seen changes in you lately like you keep procrastinating things. and things like not spending time wisely. you would keep saying you are tired and tend to sleep more than usual. are you really that tired. or it is like what you said? that you have nothing else to do so you sleep? actually you could have done many stuffs but you don't want to do it. which I don't know why. you don't used to be like that. In the past you don't seem to irritate people on purpose like what you did now to others. In the past i don't see you keep talking about stuffs that don't happen to you but your friends. In the past, you don't keep bringing up stuffs you do and thinking that what you have done is so great. So, what bring the change in you? i seriously hope it's not me? was it the army who change you to what you become? was it me? if both neither, then tell me, who did? in the past, you wouldn't have said things and expressing it like it's definitely going to happen 100% that way. when in fact it's not. sometimes i don't want to comment it is because i don't want you to be embarrassed. But the more i kept quiet about it, the more you would repeat. which by then, you would said it's because I didn't said anything about it. when I did say I don't like the way you said it, you said you don't know what wrong you did. and i shouldn't be treating you that way. then, you would start giving me pitiful attitude and black face, which end up spoil my days.

Outsiders always view me as the bad guy in this relationship, i am so tired of correcting them so i didn't. but when i didn't you reali took their words for real and treat it as compliments. seriously do you really think i am that bad. or you are really that good. it's true that you are not that bad. but as a person/ human being, i think you shudn't stopped at that satisfied level thinking it's enough. or else you would have end up like what it is like now. on the other hand, i know i am not that perfect gf either. you must be thinking at times, that you could have gotten a much more girlfriend, and i don't blame you. i myself admit, I am hard to please. i complain more than i praise. but if you can do things that ended up with me praising i think you can be considered as a very good boyfriend already. and i think you should seriously think it over with what i said. I HATE BEING THE BAD GUY, BUT YOU MADE ME.

All these, made me wonder whether i was wrong in making decisions a few months back. Everytime you tell me you would change, but the change is not permanent. How i long for a normal relationship like others. How can i get it? Let me know after you read this entry and made your decisions. I know after you read this you would be feeling angry. but i know i must do this in order to give us a one last chance. if this still doesn't work, i think it's time.

2008-01-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone my blog is 3 years old as of today.

here's a quick run-through of numbers in my blog:

-started off with a scolding entry dated 13o12005

-currently there are 264 blog entries (including this entry)

-basically all 12 months in these 3 years are filled with a few entries. (i think.)

-No. of times i changed the blogskins: sad to say, only 2 .

Mind Overload

2008-01-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

How should i say this issue out. ok. i feel reali very unhappy. perhaps unhappy isn't the rite word. but i really duno how to express myself further. i feel that i m not getting what i deserved. perhaps i m juz over estimating myself but i have exactly the same thoughts juz like when i was in JC.not exactly the same but the main gist is there. it's really exhuasting yet depressing feelings. not that i m requesting someone to tok to now. cos even if there is one i aso duno how to relay the whole point to him/her. but i kinda think that when my frens are in some sort of troubled state, i self claimed that i will be there (if i happen to know), but who is actually there for me when i m feeling down? no one. dun need the person to tok to me. he/she can juz be there silently next to me. mayb i will tend to nag, mayb i will tend to pretend everyting is alrite. but at the very least he/she is there. can i juz sae this feeling is lonely? if not for my extrovert characters, i seriously think i m diagnosed with depression like so much earlier. yet at times it may appears that i superficially have so many frens available, there are times where i feel that there is no frens as well. it's a contradicting yet one thin line relationship. duno how to relay how terrible i feel now but i oni noe i m in between crying and not crying. i think i can only sae i feel so maligned. in terms of my academic performance. as if there is some xiao ren or some black forces obstructing me to advance or mayb pulling me backwards. i just wan to do well in my final semester. is it reali that harD? i dun wan to be worried with issues of me not entering the uni i hope for. i want everything in my life not that it shud be very smooth but i think it shud be less shaky as well. i m tired. there are so much things that i haven't complete. and being me, i reali wan to complete it asap. i dun wan to procrastinate. who can help me? i wan to help myself that badly but why the place and timing is always that bad for me? why cant i have a period of smooth sailingS? why is every second every minute of my life full of obstacles?i m just a 20 year old teenager i shud be enjoying my youth (if i still have any remaining) away and not sit in a corner fretting my life away. den why do i still feel like i have a mind of a 30 year old's? isit becos i haven been attending church often? isit becos i haven been saying prayers for a long time?well, does it help if i sae it now increasing my frequency? if it does, i will sae it as often as b4 every meal i take. cos i m reali tired. it's like under normal circumstances for normal people they juz can spend their time enjoyingly without having to think ahead of the troubles they have. dear god may i noe why cant i? isit reali that hard to be a 20 year old teenageR? or is everyone going through the same thing just that i duno? if that is the case, it just make me feel better.

well. after "speaking" so long, i think my main point is no matter how hard the path ahead of me is, it just make me feel better if i know there is someone/ some friends there for me when i need them.

Kinda true i think

2008-01-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

What Does Your Birth Month Reveal About You?

Month of September

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

Days of our lives.

2008-01-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

First and for all: HAPPY 2008 Everyone!

oh God, days of wad i fear the most are here again. if this goes on, i am just a step nearer to craziness. in another words, i am going paranoid. days i hate days i fear. ok i will enter into my random ramblings.

random 1:

was swimming with yue lin and shu ling in costa sands (pasir ris) swimming pool. then i was asking them something. Below is the conversation we made:

Jaren: hey i ask you ar, if a swimmer want to go pee, they can just pee here or have to climb out and run to the nearest toilet?

Yue Lin and Shu Ling: Of course get out la! (they are the agitated women i ever seen besides my mum.)

Jaren: what if they cannot control it anymore? Then if that is so, they will climb out and pee out halfway. isn't that more paiseh than anything.

Yue Lin and Shu Ling: AHHAHAHAHHAHA (totally no image.)

Yue Lin: eh you know hor, that time me, elies and chitra went to Jurong East that biggest swimming complex? there is this activity called Tsunami which it brings in big waves. then, we were sitting there talking in a corner, (we like talking in a corner, Funny...) then, the wave came bringing in some stuffs. then we carry on talking. suddenly, elies stood up and scream: "SHIT!!!!" while she scream, she point to the 'leaf' infront of us. then, chitra start to scream as loud as possible. i tell you la. damn disgusting!

Jaren and Shu Ling: EEEkkk... so disgusting. HAHAHAHAHAH..

End of story 1, then we carry on swimming.

Random 2:

today as i was walking home from hougang mall, i thought of many stuffs. i suddenly thought of the most important principles of being a person. previously i have this teacher in bowen by the name of mdm C. i think she is the most narrow minded person i ever seen. being a teacher somemore a experienced one, i believe she has seen more things than i ever did. never did i know that she will flared up at the most tinist comment. seriously i think that is the straw that totally that offset all her years as a teacher.

Random 3:

was watching the golden path now, glad to know that bernard tan still look the same as before. so happy he is handsome. i think charming... now every wednesday, 12.30am there is this drama broadcasting again. the medical files. 医生档案. nice show also got bernard tan. he was the doctor that contracted AIDS cause he did was negligent in helping an AIDs patient inject some penicilin. so nice lor.. because of this show i learn to appreciate Phyllis Quek's acting. i still remember this drama was first broadcast in 1994 every week day 7pm. haha.... good memory leh!

Definition of "morbid"

2007-12-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday at psychology class, i learnt a new word that is, morbid.

mor·bid /ˈmɔrbɪd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[mawr-bid] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective
1.
suggesting an unhealthy mental state or attitude; unwholesomely gloomy, sensitive, extreme, etc.: a morbid interest in death.
2.
affected by, caused by, causing, or characteristic of disease.
3.
pertaining to diseased parts: morbid anatomy.
4.
gruesome; grisly.

basically it means nothing good. well, as the year coming to an end, i am being to feel more and more depressed just like the world is coming to an end. not knowing how to express myself out fully, i feel that the gap between me and others are getting larger and larger. i find animals much more easier to understand than human being. does that means i am turning into a particular animal myself? if yes, please turn me into a dog cause i realised dogs get more attention than anyone else.

these few days, morbid thoughts/dreams/scenes keep appearing in my mind. i shall not go into much details for i am afraid that potential psychologists will concluded that i am suffering from depression. being a student taking psychology as a module now, i clearly know that i am not. cause.... i still appear cheerful on the outside?

well, that are my thoughts for today. ciaos.

The world of gray (black, maybe)

2007-11-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

by reading the title think partner is going to like it.

feeling emo todae. ytd was feeling blur. the day before was feeling slpy. tml? i duno yet will tell u then

dunoo wad to sae. first time feel so anguish and stress out in my poly life so far. somehow or rather i feel tat i cant cope. n i m not getting any support from anyone else. so it's kinda terrible feeling. first time i feel like actually i duno anything, i possess little knowledge. you know it's kinda weird especially when u thought you know all this while.

and this semester, i have been procrastinating and skipping classes quite alot. more emo times. more tired times. more irritable times. more quiet times. the last one is not bad actually cos i will have more time to tink tings thru.

juz read someone's blog. (FYI i seldom do that) after reading her blog i feel more emo. actually i feel like crying out loud for her/ with her. i can understand fully how she felt cos somehow we are going thru the same ting. at some point of time i actually felt luckier than her cos at the very least i think i m blessed with more things. sometimes, i feel tat i m in the same plight as her. it's a very contradicting feeling.

the only difference both of us have is that, i know how to make myself cheer up a little. she din or she dun. but the cheer up things i made up for myself is like temporary only, prima facie oni. after that sometimes i actually feel worst after that.

by reading her blog, it hooked up alot of bad memories within me. which i thought i have long forgotten it. but face it, these memories will nv be erased! i bet you guys will never know what type of life i came from what i went thru. it's never appeared that i might come out of such background. not that i was raped or anything. but more of family ties and stuff. which cause more psychological problems and equal intensity.

this entry sounds very emo. sorry for any inconvenience caused.

SPECIAL edition to DESMOND!

2007-11-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

YoohoO! LOVE is in the air for desmond~ lol... or rather as claimed by him he is STRUCK by a lightning called LOVE~~ haha

you noe... desmond is a guy in my class who skin tone is not fair but not too dark either.. imagine him blushing and u will get DARK RED aka MAROON... lol NOT MORON. lol.. well.. mi n esther get to see this color on him todae.. lol!! when he is toking to his hot date. lol the attitude was 180degree change lor.. it started with a call/sms on the train. den he start to ans the fone den gradually he start to walk off slowly.. lol den mi n esther were like teasing like hell alr.. he muz have heard it cos when he return to our sides his face is like damn red can. den we tried to ask him qns. den he try to distract us by toking other stuffs n play psp. lol.. so funny. one more funny thing is the thing he sae when he return to our sideS:

" eh jaren. i think i cant pei u go back hougang eat kfc le. i got to go pasir ris."

"Oh~o.O i understand~ pasir ris huh~ lol~"

" yah, pasir ris oni wad."

" ya lor... chee heng aso start with pasir ris den gradually got gf liao" LOL!

"no la.."

" tonite muz go home leh"

"you dun go home nvm juz do the project. dun nao chu ren ming hor!" LOL

" how old is the ger?"

*shy shy lift up his head* " 18 lor"

"18 ar.. haiz canot bring charges liao." MAXIMUM LOL!

up till here i alighted from the train liao.. lol

after that is follow by sms session

"ok now i m going home liao."

"not staying to pei her?"

"no i go there everything ok liao"

"lol nv pei her at least watch heaven bird wif her ma.. lol. when start one?"

"no la. we went to walk. then i hungry. then she follow mi eat"

"lol dun avoid my qn wor. when start one?"

"then where you eat? got eat kfc anot"

"lol no la my dad ask mi to ta bao tabao fried rice and bee hoon mix hor fun share share, lol sia la. someone face turn dark red wor. dun wan to ans my qn somemore."

"sialah who so bad"

"lol you noe you noe.!o.O"

"dunoe you tell mi then i noe ma."

"u lor!dun wan to tell mi when start no buddies sia."

Orange is me, Blue is him purple is esther. haha funny sia...

My First Times.

2007-11-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

ytd i gave out many of my first times. first time doing facial, first time breaking chilli padi, onions and garlic.

the reason i gave out all my first times ytd becos of my bro's wedding happening tomorrow. i m nervous, unhappy and happy. i duno how to tell u guys but i guess even if i tell u guys no one understand too.

my first time went to facial. done by one of my aunts. distant relative. costs me $30. not bad. think i will go every month from now. quite shiok. but it's damn painful at the initial stage. the assistant (my aunt perform her skills on my cousin whom i went together with) was telling me that if i feel pain i shud say it out. but the pain was to the extent that i duno how to saE i juz start to tear man. she squeezed and squezzed and squeezed. all my black heads and my pimples. after that stage the face was left with red spots ard. red spots here and there. but my aunt gave me some aloe vera cream to apply to make the red spots go away. hopefully it go away asap.

my first time cut onions, garlic, chilli padi. initially shiok aftermath effects: one-word description: PAIn! the sting was so bad that i had to soak my hands into a bucket of ice water for one hour. the sting is that bad. the smell is still there. u wan to smell juz let mi noe. lol

my feelings now: HORRIbLE. dun ask mi why i scare i will cry when i finish saeing. i juz dun understand why my life is so different from others.

updates updates updates

2007-11-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm...someone commented abt my life being too boring tats y i din update for so long.. actually tat is not true..juz tat i was busy this few months rushing reports n tests... and my computer broke down on me.. cos i like to type my blog using my desktop... it's easier den typing on a flat key board. lol...

erm... about my previous post (which is about...er...some time back..o.0), i m not trying to write an essay i was juz trying to show how i attempt to write an essay..that's my start n my ending.. someone please mark the essay based on structure n not on content... i think i deserved a full mark...

wanna noe sth abt my life? actually i wan to let u guys know what happen to me everydae... but it's easier said than done u noe why? cos i m either :

a) busy with reports and tests;

b) feeling too lethargic to blog everytime i return home; or

c) experiencing Short term memory (better known as STM)

Most of the time is the last and the second... haha... cant help it if tat's the case rite...

giv u guys one tip though: if u wan to hear something i think it's funny from me, tag me... i will definitely feel obliged to blog... haha... but results are not guaranteed. haha... this offer does not extend to Cheryl KOh cause she wld most prob tag duno how many times a day juz to get mi blog once a day... rite, Partner? o.O?

Structure Essay [25 marks]

2007-10-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

Question 1: "Emotions is something in your body that you do not have control over." Do you agree or disagree with this statement? Please explain clearly.

I agree to a certain extent. First.....

Lastly, I would like to emphasize that emotions are not within the body which you can not have control over to a certain extent.

iforgotwhatiwanttosay.

2007-09-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

It's been three weeks.. yet, i have yet to taste the type of bee hoon soup i want. it's sad. mayb i should start to google it soon.. hmmm i shall do it now.

Family

2007-09-29T23:56:00.001+08:00

Father
And
Mother
I
Love
You = Family?

What is a family?

For those who know me well by now will know that I am seriously not planning to have kids. This, I think, may be due to the kind of environment I am living in. Alot of factors actually lead me to this kind of decision. For those who are planning to have children, please consider carefully the following points.

1. Whether anot you are able to give what the children wants? This does not necessarily means financially but also in terms of attention, love, care and concern. Lacking of either one i think will affect the child's upbringing. Think of it this way, why bring a life to earth when you are neglecting him/her most of the times? Isn't that a burden considering that you still have to earn extra money to pay for his/her living?

2. If you are a person who tends to practise favouritism in most issue, I suggest you don't give birth. To have a set of parent showing favouritism is the last thing a child can pray for. Put yourself in the child's shoes, how do you feel if you are the one being neglected, treated invisible although you are physically there? Everyone who tried will definitely say they will feel unwanted. But seriously, how many actually experienced the feeling of unwanted before? Not many. In those handful of people, some will actually lie to others and themselves that they don't have such feeling before. It woudn't be long for them to realise that they can't lie forever. And when that happens, they will be more depressed than the others.

3. Do you have too much patience to spare? If you don't have a high tolerance level, please join my league. Don't reproduce. Most of the children are born to torture you. Being impatient, it is likely for you to give them a few slaps, punches, kicks, somersaults, etc. This will land you in serious run-ins with the law.

So, why give birth?

Wake me up when September ends

2007-09-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

September...such a long month. It seems longer as I stepped into a new day. I can only hope it end soon and enter a new month. But looking forward into the next month is like trying to look hard into a misty/foggy forest. Unclear.

September. Though unpleasant, there are still a few good things that happened to me. For example: I passed my SAP Certificate test, and i got a new ipod classic... and i get to watch family guy video?

Some unpleasant stuffs to mention: my laptop crashed - whole hard disk burnt, my desktop died at the same time. lived in a cave-like environment for about a week. Now, both are back but with wounds. So, things are lost. files are gone.

Took up Psychology this semester. Actually i don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. Good because i get to study the area of study even to a small extent. Bad because i get to see the people around me more closely. This is seriously a big point cause the more i observe people around me and myself the more i feel negative towards life. It proven my point - that the world is ugly yet beautiful at times. Certain friends around me really set me thinking - whether i have seen their true colors, or I am just in the midst of unraveling their real secrets.

Yet again, maybe all this has nothing to do with Psychology, afterall i have just attended one lesson so far. It's still early to tell. But one thing for sure, this year has been an unhappy year for me so far and i seriously believe that the worst has yet to come.

I used to think that trust can be gained by going through certain ordeals together. Although I would say not some life-staking ordeals but normal ordeals will definitely make you want to trust that person more and closer to that person don't you think so? Right now, I can only concluded that this theory is not true. I am really not myself these few months. Maybe it's a change for good, maybe it's not. Who knows?

Feeling rotten on the inside, and depressed on the emotional side.

I know what you did..... yesterday

2007-09-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

in the midst of SAP course now...yesterday was a horror...went to plaza singapura on tue...to watch Papa~~ yAaaa~... dined at secret recipe...but i think the food there contaminated or wad sia.. by the time i watch 881 (which is around 9.20) i start to feel abit weird..start to hiccup non stop.... then at the end of the movie i was like feeling nauseous already... think i can vomit anytime that type... when i reach home i bombed the toilet into pieces... den bathe n sleep... woke up in the middle of the nites... went to the toilet again...and then... *PUKE* everything was out... that nite i din have a peaceful sleep throughout cause i was running to n fro my room and the toilet... to the extent my limbs went numb n cramped... like a spastic person...

in the morning another bout of vomit and then straight to the doc... before the doc i still need to vomit once more still... the doc say it's gastric flu.. and it's contagious..AND SHE GAVE ME A JAB UPON MY DAD'S REQUEST WITHOUT WARNING ME.... den i return to my dad office...cant sleep cause no proper bed...den i requested to go home my dad sae n0t possible cause no one free to fetch mi home.. ask mi to ta han awhile until we go home den i sae i fever wan panadol the doc nv give mi... so my dad went down to take... after taking the panadol i straight away KO. till afternoon... think PANADOLs MAKE A PEACEFUL SLEEP for me.. cant imagine the effects if i have taken sleeping pills..

finally went home..went to slp for a while immediately..den woke up to bathe n eat..den sleep again until my bro came home with a birthday cake for my dad. it's my dad's birthday today... But then hor... i cant eat the cake wor...sian somemore it's MANGO cake wor... haiz..den we discuss about THE WEDDING.. discuss until 12 den i go zzz...

den todae came to sap... my favourite lecturer is lecturing den happy la..den i wanted to give him my medical cert. but he sae nvm... he ask mi to sign yesterday's attendance.. lol.. so surprised...

I strongly feel that you should know...........

2007-09-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

hAy!!! i'm Back!! for several days alr! haha.... the chalet was fun but tiring... cos you have to wash this do that... by the second day i gave up... i juz sit down there relax....hahah but only pity is that we didn't manage to finish one round of mahjong at all...NOT FUN! i want many many mahjong la... sians leh... the next fun is drinking i think this time our classmates came prepared.. last year all by 5 plus vomit all over the place.. but this time round only desmond puke.. all remained conscious... haha finish one bottle chivas on the first nite.. and seecond nite one red wine and one barcadi limon.... barcadi limon is nice... taste like lemon barley... haha... den i refused to drink glenfiddish cos it smells bad.... we had ducky fuzz and fuzzy duck game and BANG! game and HARDGAY to go along with it... it was so much fun listening to so many ppl scolding vulgarities... haha... wad was it? was it fucking fast?? haha....when it was oni fuzzy duck.... haha dun ask mi? i duno how it come about.... but i know originally from wei cong... den soon all start to follow the trend...

den end chalet i straight away go home ko whole day... totally canot make it sia..

den slack whole day at home... torturous.. haha... when i stay home mean mac delivery le.. totally waste of money...

den friday ask yiru go K in the morning before heading for rebonding... i tell u ar... my butt almost bcome square shape.. totally butt pain lor.. den my hair almost on fire.. cos there is this stand in staff there totally so distracted by the tv while she is working hard on my hair... i mean CONCENTRATE la... it's my hair u are working on man!! but outcome was ok la... den i trimmed my eyebrows... many virgin workout that day...

re-hi

2007-08-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

i m back...was busy with exams and projects thats y i din blog for a long time... some told mi that i shud update soon and some sae my blog it's dead...it's not it's juz resting to travel a little longer...

a lot of things happen within this period of time... gain and lost... ups and downs... but i can tell you mostly are unhappy stuffs.. currently feeling very down... cos sth bad happen... yeah so i wun be saying much....

promotion: class chalet on 27 to 29 august... venue is at tanah merah... nsrcc...

What goes up will come down except A-G-E...

2007-07-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

heard this quote from DR Sheh...kinda true but funny... isnt it...

die Napfa coming... i went to run today...trial testing for the 2.4km with my fren... quite badly done.. duno y... 18 mins... my fren sae not bad le... but i think fail liao... sad....

den went to eat wif dad.... surprised that he initiated to have dinner outside todae... den went to the carpark to find them... cant find them leh... den total SHOCK lor... my dad change car... i knew he change car la.. but i din noe he change to a NEW car... it's been 10 years since i sat in a new car... first time sit den i stink the whole car liao... haha straight away travelled in the car with all the smell n perspiration... haha.... so excited... now i m so determined to learn driving... cos i noe by the time i finish learning they will be sick of driving the car..den they will pass the car to me!!!(HOPEFULLY!!)

den went to eat curry fish head... shiok shiok and SLURP SLURP...

tired todae... recently cant slp much..think too much...

2007-07-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

feeling real down now... i duno how to explain... but feel like breaking down

Shiok-sation

2007-07-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

went shopping... metro clearance sale...

went to attack the blazer section!!! super super cheap cheap sia... 24.50 for one fine looking blazer... total BLAST la!!

den got the aurther yen gown my sis in law ask mi to take a look... alrite looking simple looking... black is the elegant color... den i tot 49 chin cai lor... den when i went to pay OMG freaking CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP la...24.50 again!

den went to see jeans.. LEE jeans selling oni 19.90... another type oni 29.00.. i tell u ar... i was like aunty la...down there take take take... try try try... buy buy buy... a total billing of 225.00 whoa... luckily not from my card la.. haha... dad's money!!! woo... cool dad cool me!

bought a total of 6 jeans.... guess everyone is gg to ask mi how come i got all the good bargains oni... mediacorp should ask mi to film in HDB tai tai... replacing the tai tai wif mei mei... lol... hOOhoOO!!!! everyone been asking mi how come i get all the cheap stuffs... actually i dunno... but i will a kind of intuition if something is too ex... it's like a sensor in my brain....

the things i don't understand....

2007-07-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

Jaren don't know that her life is miserable now is because of her own doing....

Jaren don't know that she is giving herself too much stress...

Jaren don't know that she should start entrusting some stuffs to others....

Jaren don't know that she should start to feel contented with many things and not be greedy....

Jaren don't know that she is going more and more independent....

Jaren don't know that she is feeling more and more lonely.....

Jaren don't know whether what she does is wrong or right.....

Jaren is ignorant....

National Day Parade '07

2007-07-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

went to NDP '07 at the bay last night with yl. seriously i think it sucks.. the area is so so so much smaller... nvm... den we watch the rehearsal.. i mean i noe it's a rehearsal but cant you make it better? the goodie bag came in the form of a plastic bag? hello? wad did u sae abt global warming? totally sucks.. i went for the sake of the fireworks but guess wad? it din appeared! angry! lol.. so nvm lor.. we went to have dinner aft the show.. wad else can we do... haiz... total disappointment... nvm i will c fireworks on 9th of aug.. :D

Last friday of the month - HORRIFYING!

2007-06-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last paper of the MST, it simply SUCKS! came out the weirdest questions i ever see! but not that weird la.. but i understand the rationale for the weird paper. because it's set by the weirdiest teacher. haiz... whatever! said so much also for no use. cause what's done is done, and nothing can be undone? (don't be too sure about that)

so, after the paper went to collect things.. then went out with shu hua for last friday of the month shopping. seriously that's the second and last time i will be doing that. cause the scene is simply HORRENDOUS! i don't like to squeeze with people la... sian! so me and missy yip went to far east. i bought not one but TWO bags! den she bought a top.. interesting top i must say. haha! then after that we went to shaw house to watch transformers... not bad... i take back my words, i slapped my own cheeks! ok whatever, it's definitely nicer than pirates... pirates sucks man! then the show ended we went shopping... but cant bring ourselves to shop much cos it's too disgustingly crowded... scary even... so we decided to head back... on the way back.... shu hua was being spastic and keep asking mi to say the word: "transform!". dumb ger la... haha..

ok... special note: whatever you all wan to comments aso can... but dun comment on the previous msg

it's never about me

2007-06-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

Why you just don't understand? i am glad that you know we are not compatible. but it isn't just about stating out what is wrong and what it not. you have to get the root of the problem by ANALYSING it. not just by whining and pretending that the problem does not exist. simply because of one simple reason: the problem is not going to dissolve into thin air by doing that.

i have figured it out already only you haven't. but as much as i want to let you understand you just dun let your childishness to back off to allow the new facts to enter. that is the root of the problem from last time. the whole relationship is all about you you you and YOU! it was not about us or me. and i am not talking about just material stuffs... i am talking as in depth to the HEARTS matter. you claimed that that is all because i didn't try to let you know but have you try and think back that it's all because you didn't thought of me and my life resulting you being unable to understand what i say. not that i didn't give this relationship a try but i try too much way TOO MUCH! right now, when i say let us all understand each other again before deciding whether are we the right ones for each other.. you again think about yourself again say if you agree to that you are giving in to what i demand. FINE! since we can't come to a compromise, then that concludes everything isn't it? why yiru and germaine can understand and you can't? try thinking about others for a change! for goodness sake!

seriously i really think it's your army life that you have changed? i think both of us have realised that our relationship is not like others.. just that you don't understand what's wrong.. well let me tell you, the main difference is i am being the one taking care of stuff not you... you SHOULD be the one... not me. I should be the one whining not you! i feel like i amd together with a boy, not man! I am sorry that i am being harsh on this but this is the truth. and i meant it when i say we should wait till you grow up. maybe by then your sense will return.

Additonal Notes: shall copy cheryl in this entry cause i am doing sth similar to her blog.

wtf.

2007-06-27T14:45:00.000+08:00

whoever says it pays to be a kind soul is so wrong! i swear i m not gg to lend out my notes tutorials or whatever to anyone else anymore... for one simple reason, i m always not getting some of it back... this happen last year now it happens again! i m so angry now! this time it's worst! i lost all the tutorials of the whole semester for this module.

calling all readers~...

2007-06-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

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make me.

2007-06-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

today run was abit different, think of too many things... i guess i led myself into it. was i wrong? was i right? too much thinking to the extent that now that i m back i m still thinking abt it... i shud hav let myself out of the thinking box... any more thinking of it will make mi back to wad i was.. the past few days i was alr feeling much better... so why now?? why go back to before?

is it true that as long as i tell myself everything is gonna be ok and they will really b ok?? if it is, den i will tell myself that thousand times a day.. i dun wan to feel it coming. i dun even wan it to come in the first place... save me.

2007-06-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

I want! I want! I want! Can I play please? I don’t share. WaaaaaaaaaaaH!!!! Orange. Anything as long as it’s orange. It’s mine! Me first! I’m not acting as a kid. I am one. Grow up yourself! Babies cry. Why can’t I? Pouting in progress. Nanny nanny boo boo.

I’m a perfectionist. It’s scientifically proven.

PEek-TUres~

2007-06-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

PS try uploading more but canot.

2007-06-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

你早就该拒绝我
不该放任我的追求
给我渴望的故事
留下丢不掉的名字
时间难倒回空间易破碎
二十四小时的爱情
是我一生难忘的美丽回忆
越过道德的边境
我们走过爱的禁区
享受幸福的错觉
误解了快乐的意义
是谁太勇敢说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天眼睁睁看著
爱从指缝中溜走还说再见
不够时间好好来爱你
早该停止风流的游戏
愿被你抛弃就算了解而分离
不愿爱的没有答案结局
不够时间好好来恨你
终於明白恨人不容易
爱恨消失前用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
爱过你爱过你爱过你
越过道德的边境
我们走过爱的禁区
享受幸福的错觉
误解了快乐的意义
是谁太勇敢说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天眼睁睁看著
爱从指缝中溜走还说再见
不够时间好好来爱你
早该停止风流的游戏
愿被你抛弃就算了解而分离
不愿爱的没有答案结局
不够时间好好来恨你
终於明白恨人不容易
爱恨消失前用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
爱过你爱过你爱过你

i believe i can live well.. i really do.

2007-06-19T15:59:00.000+08:00

it's over after all these years.. we finally ended... now sitting in bukit batok bk typing this entry... sounds weird but tats wad i m doing... cant bring myself to carry on studying... although we ended peacefully but i still can get over it... i noe i m lousy... was revising juz now when i almost broke down... well... did broke down a little... but manage to stop myself from a major outburst... this time there is no turning back.... i still wish him a happy ending tho... afterall if we cant be lovers we can be frens isnt it.... well... look forward to a fruitful single life... n this is oni possible if my frens are around... if not i still can survive alone... afterall that is wad tat leads to this outcome....

ok lets tok abt sth else... nth much actually... sat went to woodlands to help out cos my mum is too busy planting ba zhang tree at home... she made 170 plus ba zhang... of which 80 plus 90 went to my aunty... she went wif my 12 years old cousin... many things happen which i m not convenient to leak out here... who noes whether someone someone read it anot...
den made mi angry for the nite... cos i reali hate ppl who dun respect another.... u noe wad i means... sun got to wake up at 6 plus in the morning but i was still not aslp by 4 plus in the nite.. reason being: i was too busy n too bloated to slp...(ate 2 ba zhang at 12am). den watch fa yi xian feng lor... den watch till tired den go malaysia...

went to malaysia to have my fav ba kut teh... but not from the stores i like den abit disappointed... not nice ma... den went to search for durians.. but to no avail man.. cos not durian season yet..sadded... den went to have a banquet like dinner... enjoy it alot.. den return home...

monday was supposed to go out.. but had to skipped it cos i m reali tired... it's ok if u dun understand reali... cos u r not the one going thru.... so slpt till 6 den wake up to have dinner... den went to mac lor... i noe it's a bored session for u... but u could have tell mi...

wad am i doing? i m supposed to be amiable for this kinda of things.. why do i sound like i m complaining... i m reali ok wif it... why do i sound like i m not... mayb it's the problem of getting used to it anot.... mayb i m reali not... seriously i think tis is wad u wan.... why do i always give in to wad ppl wans... w/o asking myself whether i wan it anot...

forget it... i need time.. meanwhile i will be strong... i reali will...

UPDATE more Man!!!

2007-06-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

lol..surprised to c ur phrase in here as a title?hehez....

ytd was a shocking day man.. actually not so shocking la... juz abit nia.. woke up dne prepare to go office.. den hor... i stepped into the lift.. den reached first floor..when the door open, i got a fright man.. above my head sticks out a notice... it says

Lift under maintenance.

Sorry for any inconvenience caused.

was still in shock when i got on to the bus...lol.. den reach office.. do nth until dad returns... waiting for free ride home when he gave mi a ez link card n sae.. later take bus home... -.-.. den shi kai called!!! juz nice.. den he tell me he driving so i ask him got free ride anot... he sae ok.. den i sae ok... later send mi home... he sae ard 6 like tat... i wait and wait wait and wait... finally 6 le.. ask him where is he.. he sae he is in bugis... eating... i ji tao diao diao lor... so took bus home myself.. n did not take his car car in the end.. sians...

den reach home... watch my dvd... den dad suddenly ask mi i took money alr anot.. i sae wad money... he sae ask mi to take money take lor... still ask so much.. lol... so i take lor... extra 50 this week.. but i think i still overspend... cos the bu gua... den cab trips... den at nite finish watching my dvd starting another serial tonite...

juz ask for the price of escape perfume... ($67)... compare to sasa or any other places... waiting for shi kai n cheryl to get perfum too... the earliest they agree the faster i can get mine... cos my sis in law will oni get it if there is free delivery.. n the only way to have free delivery is to buy more...:( shi kai sae another 2 or more months.. sad!!!

later going out to meet sze yuan i think mayb not starting a new series le... lol

fatigue...

2007-06-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

had a real taste of fatigue man... this few days i keep reaching home at ridiculous hours.. like 1 2 or 3 am.... this sucks for i m a person who need at least 12 hours of slp daily tho it's preferred if it is 15 hours.. :P

Sun
went to K in the morning had to wake up at freaking 9.30 am.. tat's the earliest i ever wake up on sunday... reach there by cab.. den buy birthday cake for kai hoon in polar..i can tell u they bake the nicest cakes man... simply like their cake too much.. chocolate mint... anyway... had alot of fun lor... we had a part where we were enjoying kai hoon singing nic tse de song den all of us sing together..den hor sing sing sing... suddenly reaalise that we are somewhat like nian jing... reciting sutra.. haha... damn funny la..
after k i went back home with courtesy of kai hoon's boyfren... wanted to go back take ez link card den go out one but den dunno where to go aso so in the end stay home finish my jiu dian feng yun lor... who noe i watch 2 episodes oni i buay tong liao.. feel the need and urge to catch up my slp... lagging behind 54 hours.. haha den woke up ard 8 plus... feeling hungry yet lazy to go out buy.. seriously we should request for kopitiam delivery man.. like hongkong... den cont to watch vcd den play suduko... den hor laura msg mi to tell mi tat she is reaching singapore at 9 ask mi to bring her to eat.. so i suggested gg to chomp chomp to eat lor.. she sae ok but she need to return to paya lebar first to put her luggage.. wah seh i tell u...i left home at 11 reach serangoon at 11.30 den wait for her to come.. by the time she come ar .. ~~A NEW DAY HAS COME~~~ BY CELINE DION~~ 00:00 -.-
we officially took the last bus to chomp chomp den reach there ard 12 15... den eat n chat until 1 plus den we take cab home.. reach home at 1.40 exact... den pronounced KO lor... den next day... horror!

Mon
woke up at 8 to go school...den hor.. waited for des to wake up..this idiot is much more difficult to call him... den we go school... at red hill den i realised i m supposed to hand in my BD report... which i left it at home... totally DENG DENG DENG!!!! den i panicked lor... ask des to pei mi go home take he sae he late liao... den i called li yun to tell her i will b late den she tell mi: "actually hor u dun need to come to school todae.. cos oni for leaders..." thunders came n lightning strike!!! den i stoned lor.. in the end i still arrived at the school to print out a new set of the report thanks to partner... den i commit crimes under the eyes of the weird looking technician AKA ah peh.. tat's the period of time my heart beat the fastest in so far.. try printing free color papers in sch n u will get the "excitment" feel. den after printing pei des eat den go to office to find mama den wait for laura there... b4 pei-ing her to orchard to shop.. can tell u her shopping habit is terribly long man... i pei fu pei fu.. can call her master of the master!! den aft orchard went back my house to put tings... oh ya i bought my fav chili ba gua!!1 but i haven eat...den went out at 1 again in the nite to go drink... drank killkenny.. a smooth stout beer... quite nicel.. but was feeling abit nauseous... cos at din tai fung i din eat much so i cant drink on a almost empty stomach.. den was feeling nauseous alr when chris ask mi to bottom up... i reali bottom up n end up feeling like my bottom is upside down..den reach home at 2..called partner while in the toilet.. everytime i suffering bad time after drinking have to find her.. tok to her so tat i wun end up slping in the toilet one more time.. last experience wasn't tat bad but i still think slping on my bed better.. after tat i totally BONKed out... until today......

Tue
woke up at 11 plus when someone called me.. nice slp after the beer.. den called office to realise tat mum not in there.. so i had to go down to the office which means i cant go out.. which is abit u noe how i reali feel partner... haha... went to office.. den return home.. den went out to esplanade again... to find them.. found harry's bar there.. but din go in.. cos empty stomach.. dun wan to dirty esplanade by puking all over there... scare the fine will be heavier den puking in somewhere else.. oh ya almost kena locked out of house.. cos my maid took my keys n din inform mi where she went.. in the end i panicked.. wanted to scold her alr when she return wif 2 pkts of fried chickens!! BAIK~~~ lol.. den devour half a chick den went out again.. den after esplanade went to bugis to find good durians.. den i reach there to find tat the store i always ate from alr kena chased away bcom cheers le.. so no choice hav to buy from roadside one.. which cost mi 4 boxes 10 dollars.. got the looks n smell..but the taste is like shit AKA kanasai...den brought the durians to my bro's house.. saw PEPPER and YUKI... so happy took pics wif them... if can i try to upload... if canot i cant help it...missed them so much... they are so different from my house de snowy la.. the useless dog at home oni noe how to bark like mad.. idiot... isit true to sae tat crazy dog has crazy owner? i tell u PEPPER noe how to paw shake alr... so cute rite? den stay there for a while den went to have dinner den bro send mi home first b4 sending them home which is in paya lebar.. n he needs to wake up at 7 plus tml.. haiz.. ke lian...

PARTNEr, ANNONYMOUS: how? my blog entry satisfacted anot? long enuf? interesting enuf? funny enuf?.. i m juz asking for some comments.. praises if any.. haha not looking for troubles...

shrek; braun buffel; phillips

2007-06-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

went to watch shrek 3 with dear today... it was ok la... tot i can use my complimentary pass.. but the staff very fierce de sae no! den i total shock sia...no den no la.. dun need to be so fierce one rite... the show is alrite one.. would be more enjoyable if the babies inside dun cry n their mums bring them out when they cry.. real spoiler lor! idiot babies!!! hate them.. saw the babies of shrek so cute lor.. and funny... den the justin timberlake voice is very disgusting!!! ew... real ew...

after the movie wanted to noe who sing the soundtracks cos it's damn nice... den i waited waited and waited... btu the thing juz dun hav la.. saded!!! den msg partner she slping like mi sia... whole dae no wake up.. i think she replenishiing her energy either for the past few daes one or for the next few daes one... lol...partner jing zhu zhe hei jing mo zhe chi... hahaa!!!

den went to look for wallets.. was in a dilemma whether to buy pierre cardin or braun buffel man!!! in the end after a few trips of to and fro of metro and isetan... decided to buy braun buffel... but hor... deng deng deng!!! i went to the promoter.. she sae oni have in brown color.. den i seh diao lor.. sian diao straight away.. so in the end dear sae go bugis cos we can shop other shops n go sim lim. to buy ear piece aso lor.. so we went.. the trip there we saw caucasians... den i think they are quite pretty lor.. cos their noses very sharp.. envy... and regrets for not pinching my nose in the past... haha.... den reach bugis... kinda feel unwell... migraine n giddiness alll came at once.. but still we shopped... den we saw a wide variety of braun buffel there.. den we choose n finally we decided on the braun buffel.. but while i am there.. i saw pierre cardin.. so mayb i will get one of it when i save enuf money which means more chicken rice n less dinner... haha

den we shop shop a while at bugis den we go to sim lim lor.. through the walkway there we smell and SAW durians!!! was wanting to eat it for a long time but hor.. i not feeling well so din eat.. din wan to faint in the midst of the crowd.. so i juz act blind n walk thru it... den reach sim lim... kinda feel lost there... din like tat place cos it's seem foreign to mi with all the different type of technology... so quickly went to find ear piece and bought it... finally bought philips even though i wanted sony...but sony too ex la.. so no choice lor.. den took bus to compasspoint to eat burger king.. todae kind of huan dao zui zui zui.. haha ... den reach compasspoint more not feeling well.. but still pei dear to eat cos he wan to eat burger king badly den we go back his house to take his cammie to upload the photos to my lappie.. cammie lappie.. lappie cammie.. rhyme sia.. lol... den i go home lor.. his mum greeted mi in her messy hair.. n his bro greeted mi in half nakednes... top naked!! dun think crooked!! den i mistook his bro for his dad.. muz b the migraine effect.. lol... den is i called him uncle.. so paiseh!!! den we chatted awhile while dear went to take tings.. den we go home le lor.. liek tat lor... tat's my sat.. tml morning muz wake up early to go sing k!!! duno why suddenly dun have the mood... mayb bcos i not feeling well... not feeling well aso wan to come update blog.. c i so hardworking... actually bcos i dun wan to be scolded lazy by others.. lol.. u noe who u are... lol... den now waiting for that idiot wei ming to bathe.. haha dun mind mi scoldin u idiot ar!!! haha... it's a name for close frens..:P waiting for him to play suduko wif mi b4 i slp... haha

You Thought i Think WHO CONFIRM?!

2007-06-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

haha i m back to
blogging... haha ignored this for months le... time to get back if not i will
carry "the laziest pig on earth" de tag le... cannot b too lazy.. finally
rush finish all projects and reports le... can take a breather le...

rush like mad person
todae in sch... ran from lab 1 to lab 2 den when both dun work it out...crash
t2145/6/7 until everything work out... until 6.30... mentally n physically
tired... but thank god it's over...
hmmm lets c... i wan to
watch shrek 3 any takerS?

all my kakis in poly dun
wan to watch wif mi... jc they all all bz in ndp... haiz... den who else
neh//???

todae was totally crazy
after everything is done... mi, esther and cheryl walk to the mrt station... i
tell u i almost went rolling down the slope man... we were toking crap la... den
in the mrt... i think i went bonkers man... we were luffing at the lamest tings
on earth lor... i think alot of eyes on us... we were the noise pollutor.. in
some other cases aka the bimbos... lol... but everything was fun la.. after all
the stress is gone.. this week is too much to handle le... i had oni 30 hrs in 5
daes oni... totally shack... now my partner is eating jap food in imm ...esther
gg to redang soon... haiz... wan to sing k n watch n shopping!!!

*kor kor next tue fetch
mi to school leh.... school very far far.... wan to try ur driving skills
aso.....

day 5/44

2007-03-04T12:13:00.000+08:00

still waiting for partner and sister to go online... haiz... it's so terrible here... my workplace is oni 12 mins ride from here... yet i have to reach the place 1 hr 15 mins earlier den wad i m supposed to report... reason being: my frens who share a cab wif me is working much more further den mi.... and it's super duper far lor.... argh!!! somebody kill mi~~~

day 3 and 4

2007-03-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

now is 12 plus.. happy yuan xiao day to all...todae attend seminars at a gigantic school.... super big.... den slpt thruout lol.... haha ....

how i wish i can be back at my home.... miss my home so much,.... so deprived of proper slp... haha

day 2/44

2007-03-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

second day....

tiring sia... almost died from climbing stairs climbed 400 steps todae... visited zhong shan ling.... ling gu shi... mei ling palace.... tired.... ya lor... i can use msn to tok to u all through the call so get online ok? my partner and sister.... miss u all ...

day1/44

2007-03-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

can you tell whether have we started eating anot.... haha

reached airport exactly at 1300... lol.. den went to restaurant to eat a very eee.... den the meal is better by every meal... den one meal is better than other meal... by the meal todae we finished everyting on the table.... ... shall show u our food...

leave a note...

2007-02-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

leaving in 2 daes.. kinda miss my family alr... n my frens... haiz... i think i reali spend too little time wif my family this new year... haiz... sad....

leaving soon, yet my tings are not packed yet... i reali wonder i can survive in china anot... doubting it alr....

pictures say a thousand words

2007-02-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

sisters...

Brothers...

nice chair...

Super nice food CAN?hehez

budget airlines... double BLEAHz

the tutu..

unique looking bottles...look carefully

hmmm... shopping...bleahz

the after effects...

the fire crackers....

hmmm y the gap in between?

Finally...

cousins united...

Quotes```

2007-02-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

"what goes round comes around..."
"what you gives is what you get..."
"don't blame people for giving you attitude..."
"don't give people attitude when other people got attitude of their own..."
"please think through the brains before you act...."
"please be aware that you are pissing someone else off"

THE TERROR IS OVER!!!

2007-02-09T12:10:00.000+08:00

sorry ya.. din mean to create spider webs on my blog... but i went away for exams... horror man... but i m glad it's over... haha my schedule is packed from now on... nearer to the departure date le... haha nervous....

oh ya...i wan to sae HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my "BELOVED" partner!!! cheryl... although it's abit late... heeh heeh ... forgiv mi hor....

Missing: Jaren Tay Si Lin

2007-01-28T11:44:00.000+08:00

Missing Notice:

Jaren Tay Si Lin

Age: 19 but looking for the one aged 16 in the year 2003...

Things to look out for:

-Metallic blur frame specs...

-A head that is always burrowed into any textbooks...

-black hair with some strands of white in it...

If found please contact 19 year old de Jaren (year 2006). urgently need her to buck up 2006 version de Jaren. cause the latter had been caught slacking like hell..... need motivation and lots of self discipline.... attractive rewards are available....

damn!!

2007-01-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

dropped 9 bucks in cash... can u believe it?

i noe it's not much but it's the whole action tat i m mad abt.... i mean how could i commit such mistake....

dumb ass me la!

seriously i lost so much tings cos i place those tings in my pockets... shudnt have trust my pocket man!! after losing my handphones and ez link cards for duno how many times... even atm cards too... how could i have put my cash in my pocket too!? y din i tot of tat juz now!?!